Monday, April 6, 2009

Hosanna...

...Save us Lord!

My pastor
shared with us from Daniel yesterday in our Palm Sunday Worship service. And (oh my) what perspective I have gained! I was so blessed to hear these stories again, that I've heard many times before, with a new set of ears. Curtis spoke of the fiery furnaces and pits of lions we find ourselves in throughout our lives that we call on God to save us from. And this is the phrase that is soaking into my heart today...

"We are not always rescued from the difficulties in life, but are rescued in the difficult times."

Prior to March 24th, I would never have asked to be taken through the darkness and pain that I faced. My stubborn spirit and human frailty would never allow me to willingly raise my hand and volunteer for a fiery furnace or a pit of lions...or a miscarriage. But I found myself in my own pit - and desperately seeking God in the situation to save me.

And He did.

Even though this wasn't my choice, I can say confidently that I'm thankful for that pit. I'm thankful that this struggle and loss allowed me to feel the grip of a merciful and sovereign God guiding me in His holy direction. What a blessing. I am being saved in this struggle. I do still long for my baby. And I long for a pregnant belly to show proudly. And, in spite of my new perspective, I still find myself questioning and yearning for answers. But I know I am not pregnant right now for countless righteous reasons. And I can finally say that I wouldn't want it any other way.

Palm Sunday represents the start of the most significant week in history. I learned yesterday that the word Hosanna means "save us now".

"...And the multitudes that went before him,
and that followed, cried, saying,
Hosanna to the son of David: Blessed is he that cometh in
the name of the Lord; Hosanna in the highest.
"
Matt. 21:9

I have no palms to wave but I do have this prayer on my lips...Hosanna! Save us Lord!

And He has.

2 comments:

Erin Fasano said...

Hey Sweetie. Thanks so much for sharing with each of us. I am so sorry for what you are going through.
I am having my own different kind of struggle and your words of how God is working powerfully in your life are a light for my wounded spirit. Thank you so much, Katie.

Kelly said...

You're inspiring, Katie!