Tuesday, September 22, 2009

What's in store?

As I was driving the other morning, I sat at a red light and watched as nearly a dozen brown UPS trucks turned onto the road in front me, no double filing out together having just been filled with the day's deliveries. The entourage in front of me made me smile as I imagined them all standing in a circle before boarding their door-less trucks preparing to make a lot of people's lives a little fuller on that morning. My light turned green and as I followed behind, I watched them, one by one, turn off onto various roads and neighborhoods. I kept thinking about the people these men in brown would encounter on that day - some expecting a delivery, and some surprised by what was inside each box or envelope. It also occurred to me some people may have gotten some bad news with those packages.

I wondered if the men and women delivering these packages ever contemplated the power they held in their hands to change the direction of someone's day or life.

Eleven days ago, I received a different kid of delivery. And although news that I would never get to hold my second baby on this earth wasn't something I initially embraced as a blessing, I do know that the pain I felt and am still dealing with at this minute will eventually come with many blessings. It occurred to me that on any given day, God could load up His UPS truck and ring my doorbell (or knock on my hearts door) and change my circumstances dramatically.

In these times of pain and darkness that I am in today, when understanding is thin and questions are abundant, I can't help but think of the blessings God has in store for me. I can picture Him ready to pour out blessings on His children, excited when that day comes and He says, "today is the day my child will see those blessings!!"

As the last truck was out of site, I took a deep breath and smiled knowing that there are blessings in store for me and that God is SO excited to reveal them in His time. And, I know it will be better than anything I could have ordered!

"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed...But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."

- Romans 8:18-19, 24-25


Lauren said...

Love this post. Still thinking of you and praying for you.

poetry4u2luv said...

Hey, Katie. Just wanted you to know that I have been reading your blog and keeping up with your situation. I have also been praying for you. Love your blog... Keep the faith! You are precious in God's eyes!

Doris Hayes Gibson

Carrie said...

Wow Katie! I am proud to be your sister!!! Humbled! Love you and I miss those babies too!!!!!!

Liz said...

I am blessed by your hope in the Lord and your faith that enables you to praise Him in the storms. Keep pressing on. =)

Anonymous said...

Thankful for your testimony of trusting God in the midst of storms and difficulties. May you continue to sense His presence in your life


The Hulocks said...

Katie - I love your post. I have never thought about UPS trucks that way. Thinking and praying for you!!

Amanda said...

So true! We never know when or how blessings will come to us. We waited for 5 years with a miscarriage and finally were blessed to adopt 2 babies within a week of each other! We even had the heartbreak of almost adopting our son, to have him taken away after 2 months. But God in his wisdom brought him back to us 2 months later along with a little girl. It's always hard to understand the heartbreak, but God knows and chooses to bless us in His time. What an encouragement your testimony is now and will always be in the future to others facing heartbreak!